That time in February when I couldn’t get him on the phone for hours when he said his parents came over to his little brother’s house (where he claimed he was residing-LIE) to tell them his sister on dialysis had just been given 6 months to live. I wonder was it true?
I wonder if on Sunday, Jan 15, 2017, when he claimed he was playing at church services all day then got called to the hospital because his youngest daughter had an allergic reaction and had to stay in the hospital overnight for monitoring. He didn’t call me all night. I wonder was it true?
I wonder what he told his wife was the reason my baby stayed with him in Dothan for a couple of weeks in January. Obviously, he didn’t tell her I was working and tired in early pregnancy and he was trying to lighten my load since he hadn’t relocated yet as he told me he planned to do. I mean he did pay the rent at our house in Huntsville. Why would I think anything else?
I wonder how an actively married man was able to stay away from home so many nights and didn’t work an overnight job. Easter, Christmas day/night, New Year’s Eve/Day, Valentine’s Day/Night, and that’s just the days that are easier to remember. This one baffles my mind to no end.
I wonder why an actively married man would converse and plan a new baby with someone who isn’t his wife. I wonder why he would even entertain the thought of another child. I wonder why he would go so far as to implant a seed knowing that this time may or may not produce a baby (That time did, indeed. Due in August.)
I wonder why he would go through all the trouble of living a double life. Someone is bound to get hurt, right? Wife and children at one residence. Pregnant girlfriend and 1 year old at another. Paying mortgage and rent at two places. Breaking hearts every other day without anyone knowing the difference.
I wonder why he would allow me to give up so much for him knowing that he was lying to me the entire time. I’ve sacrificed everything but my children for a person who had no intention of living the right way.
I wonder why he went to my parents’ house regularly to sit and chill with my immediate and extended family. Sometimes when I wasn’t even there myself. Why? This is something that hurts me so bad. You didn’t just lie to me, you lied to them. Why?
I wonder why he stood in front of his wife and I and said that the only reason he paid child support for our son (yes, he’s been on child support since our son was 2 weeks old) and rent was to keep me out of his hair. (LOL- sorry, it still makes me laugh.) I’ll take that. But, being that I’ve always paid my own rent without asking for his help, why would he go so far as to do that? To keep me out his hair? Hmm. I’m still confused.
Our son hasn’t seen him since the “big bust” 3 weeks ago. He says that he’s having to get some things in order on his end. So, you get caught in your own web of lies and you stop being an active father to your child? Is Elijah not allowed in Cottonwood with his VERY LARGE, CHURCH-ORIENTED, CHRISTIAN family? He’s always seen his son regularly no matter what anyone else may know or believe despite our personal opposition. So what is this?
I wonder how he’s going to be when our daughter gets here. (IT’S A GIRL!) Is he going to keeping lying to satisfy people around him and sneak to help me with our children? Or is he not going to be around at all? I won’t expect too much. With The Father, The Son, and The Holy Ghost on my side, we’ll be fine with or without him. That’s a fact.
Until Next Time…
-Alex