So about God’s grace…
I’d be lying if I said it was easy. It’s not easy. Being a single mother to a toddler and a newborn is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. Although, I’m sure that when it’s all over, it will be the most rewarding.
God’s grace is…
12 days ago, I gave birth to a healthy, 6 pound, 5 ounce baby girl. The birth of my daughter has relieved me of so many stresses. I worried that something would be wrong because I stressed so much during my pregnancy. I had so many days full of tears and feeling like I was worthless. I still tried my best to carry my child to the best standard possible.
His grace is…
As I laid behind the drape on that operating table not able to see anything or anyone except my sister and the anesthesiologist, I anxiously listened for her cry. I needed to count ten fingers and ten toes. I needed to know that she was okay and that my emotions hadn’t ruined her.
A few minutes later…
She wailed. It was like music to my ears. Her cry was so high pitched yet so small. They brought her to meet me. She was so beautiful. All I could do was praise God after they took her away while they finished my surgery. I remember saying “Thank you, Jesus. Hallelujah, Jesus.” over and over again while I continued lying on that table cut open. The pregnancy had just ended and new life was just beginning.
Thankful that His grace is…
Looking back over my 39 weeks of pregnancy, I know it was no one but God who ensured that we both made it out alive. I would have loved back and foot rubs, someone to help me around the house, someone to cook dinner some days, etc.. But, that wasn’t His plan. I had to learn my own strength. I needed to know how to do it ALL on my own. I needed to know what it was like to only depend on Jesus.
Because His grace is…
I’ve been very blessed despite my rough times over the past 5 months. God truly dispatched His angels to walk with me along my path. My daughter was blessed before she entered this world. I haven’t had to purchase one diaper, one wipe, one piece of clothing, or baby essentials yet her closet space is full and she lacks nothing.
So about God’s grace…
It’s sufficient.
“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” -II Corinthians 12:9 NKJV
Until Next Time…
-Alex
