I could talk about the heartbreak…
But, it’s the broken promises and disloyalty for me.
A lie. One lie. It started with a single lie.
You were my friend. My confidant. My homie. Then, my love.
Was it enough? The money- if you are questioning my inquiry.
Were they worth it? The legs you slid in between stepping out on our relationship- if you are inquiring about what I am talking about.
You promised me you’d have my back. You promised me that you wouldn’t go anywhere. You promised me that you wouldn’t betray me. You promised that I was your one and only.
Truth is…
You lied.
But, see I had my own promises to you…
I promised you that I would never betray you. I promised you that I would have your back. I promised you that another man COULD NEVER…
I also promised you that I was your blessing. I promised you that if you didn’t treat me right, I couldn’t stay around. I promised you that you would never meet another me. Not in this lifetime, anyway. The old you would have no choice but to transform.
Letting you go was not the hard part…it didn’t hurt me.
Releasing you knowing what lessons you would be forced to go through without me, did.
If I didn’t know how to swim, I would be dead because you left me out in the cold.
I stood in front of you and behind you, but you still wandered. All the prayers, nurturing, loyalty, and support still couldn’t help you. I had no choice but to let you go. I had already given up everything else for our love…
But, TODAY…
Today, I loved me more than I’ve loved me in the past months. Thank you for waking me up to ME. I’m so proud of ME. I look in the mirror and I love ME. I think of my love, my compassion, my generosity, my vibesss, my brains, my loyalty, my warm, healthy, and happy soul and…
I LOVE ME.
You promised me that you loved me, too.
You didn’t.
Take care.
Until Next Time…
-Alex
