I’m starting life over again.
I’m starting over. That’s all that I’m sure of at this point. It’s scary but I’m looking for God to be right by my side.
Four months ago, I had no idea of what I was going to do. I had just quit my well-paying job and the job that I thought would work out- didn’t, because I couldn’t work in the fumes of that environment. So, here I was- no job… rent, light bill, car note, credit card bills, daycare bill, car insurance, and other bills , w/ a one year old toddler, and another one on the way.
I give God His deserved, mighty praise because He is the only explanation for me being able to have a job (Although, it doesn’t pay as much), to have a roof for me and my babies, my car for me to haul them, food in our bellies, and most importantly… MY GOOD NAME. I didn’t get caught up in any foolish behavior that would allow my name to be tampered with. As a matter of fact, people have been able to see me for who I really am these past four months.
Four months later, I don’t live life the same. I can’t. Not right now, anyway. It’s going to take a lot of hard work to put me back to where I was financially. Everything took a hit- my credit score included. The bills may have eventually gotten paid, but nine times out of ten, they were late.
I’m still grateful. I honestly don’t care about what my “right now” LOOKS like. It FEELS like Christ is near me. It FEELS like something big is on the way. It FEELS like this will be my very last season of lack. It FEELS like my upcoming book will be be a best-seller. It FEELS like I’m going to have two, beautiful, healthy, intelligent babies who adore their mother. It FEELS like my writings are going to be the only thing having to remind me of my current situation… because I’m going to be so HIGH up that it’s impossible to look too LOW. It FEELS like God is about to use me in a major way. It FEELS like life is about to get really, really good for me and mine. Hallelujah!
No matter what, I’m looking up. It’s working together for my good. I continue to do right by people. I continue to put my best effort forward in my endeavors. I do the best I can with what I’ve got, so I know there’s more to come.
There are many stories in the bible of restoration. I believe God is working His favor on my behalf as we speak.
“And the Lord restored Job’s losses when he prayed for his friends. Indeed the Lord gave Job twice as much as he had before.” Job 42:10
“Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.” Mark 11:24 NKJV
“But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you.” I Peter 5:10 NKJV
“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” Matthew 6:33 NKJV
My next season is guaranteed to be better than my last.
Until Next Time…
-Alex
