Last Saturday, I wrote an almost 1,700 word blog post. However, I didn’t post it. My emotions were high. I was so disturbed. I was so disgusted. I was in complete shock and disbelief. I just couldn’t wrap my head around what had just happened, so I let God have it. Only then was I able to SEE…
Up until last Friday, I kept an open mind. I gave certain individuals the benefit of the doubt. I carried positive solutions of the situation in my head. Basically, I thought way too high of some people.
Last Friday, I had what I originally thought would be a conversation with the stepmother of my children. Since a conversation typically consists of both parties being able to talk and listen equally, that’s obviously what it was NOT. I did the listening.
However…
The advantage of allowing this God-fearing, holy-ghost filled, Christian, reasonable, understanding, steadfast woman to do ALL the talking (well…screaming), I learned:
- There will be no help before or upon arrival with my daughter because although her father IS NOT denying her, SHE doesn’t know that it’s his. She made it clear that she is not allowing her husband to do for a child that hasn’t been proven to be his…That’s understandable.
- That beyond child support, my son will not receive one dollar extra from her household taking from her kids mouths. She made it clear that I “may need to get a second job or something because that’s it.” I graciously accept this.
- That I should have thought about everything before I started writing a blog “trying to shame somebody”. (Someone whose name and face still remains anonymous to this day)
- That my tricks and manipulation won’t work. (This is nothing but confusion to me.)
- That I’m just mad that her husband is home with his family. (Nope. Negative. Don’t believe the hype.)
- That “it’s all about her now”, making sure to add that “charity starts at home.” (As it SHOULD have always been. I’m glad she’s happy.)
Although I was hearing all of this from man’s mouth, God spoke something different to every sentence that was spoken.
One thing that I do know is that God nor his disciples will ever deny anything that’s needed from His children. So, the mere fact that human flesh was telling me what me and my children (God’s children) would not be getting, was just lies. What’s meant for us will come straight to us. What is ours will not bypass us and God, Himself, will see that we have it.
God may just know that once He’s finished, certain individuals will need the very harvest of the seeds they never had any desire to sow.
It’s unfortunate that my son has to suffer due to hands of his mother’s actions. It has been made clear that my blog is possibly the reason he’s been cut off from a relationship with his biological father. However, I know that one day my baby boy will understand everything.
She was also very bothered (although I personally thanked her for them getting him) that I didn’t announce to the masses (my blog) that my son finally got to see his dad (after 10 weeks) and spent two nights at their house three weeks ago. He hasn’t seen him since.
All of this has opened my eyes to see that these people care NOTHING about the vitality of my children. I realized that my son is not safe where he is not truly loved and welcomed. You can’t hate the mom and love the child. So, I plan to keep MINE close to me.
I want the Mrs. comfortable and secure at all times. I will gladly enable her denial and neglect in this case. I am not and have never been the problem in her marriage. I will not allow my children nor myself to be her punching bag when she feels inadequate…and God, Himself, knows that I won’t be controlled at her hands.
With that being said…
We can say farewell to those people. I will cut my losses here. Until last Friday, I didnt know what to expect but now I do. I thank God for always coming through to show the devil’s hand so that I know how to plan accordingly and to pray specifically.
“A little that a righteous man has Is better than the riches of many wicked.
For the arms of the wicked shall be broken, But the Lord upholds the righteous.” Psalm 37:16-17
Until Next Time…
-Alex
